A Love Letter to my Beloved

My parents chose my name...with much thought and great intention.
They knew it was a name that would shape and identify me.
They knew a name was important and meaningful.

You've given me a name too.
Beloved
Bride
Created
Heir
Daughter
Friend
Names which shape me and identify me, in greater ways than my birth name. Names that speak of and sustain a Hope and a Future. Names that say I am Yours.

It is Your names which enable me to surrender myself to the names You have given me...names that allow for less of me and more of You.
Beloved
Bridegroom
Faithful One
Redeemer
Prince of Peace
Emmanuel
Provider
Your names speak of constancy, endurance, and perfection. Your names speak of love, goodness, and sacrifice. Your names are eternal. They define You better than my names do and, at the same time, seem too inadequate to fully describe You. They are a sliver...a fraction...a piece of all that You are. But just as I am Yours, You have told me that You are mine!

Never do I need to be alone again.
Never do I have to struggle or endure life by myself.
Never do I have to right the wrongs in my own strength.
All that defines You is available to me!
Who am I to deserve all of You?

I remain,
Yours.

A thought...learning to be His beloved

You beckon
I listen
You woo
I dance
You speak
I sing
You astound
I watch
You delight
I stumble
You persist
I'm humbled
You forgive
I'm amazed
You give
You touch
You move
You love

I learn to love too

A Song...and a thought.

**There are many times when my actions or my heart screams that God is not enough for me. I crave connections with others...I allow my dreams to surpass God...I look for affirmation or attention from others...I cater to my whims instead of yielding my resources to God. In fact, there are times when I do this so often that I feel like the biggest hypocrite when I sing this song or any other song to the Lord. But it's about surrendering. It's about changing, bending, returning back into the arms of the Beloved and allowing Him to fill me where I have previously chosen other things. And when I do surrender, I inevitably find the presence and Person of the Lord to be sufficient...to be more than sufficient. He has not abandoned me or ever forgotten me, no matter what it may feel like at times.**


All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

You are my supply
My breath of life
And still more awesome than I know

You are my reward
worth living for
And still more awesome than I know

All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

You're my sacrifice
Of greatest price
And still more awesome than I know

You're the coming King
You are everything
And still more awesome than I know

More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can say
You are more than enough for me


**song by Chris Tomlin and Louie Giglio

A Love Letter to my Beloved

My Beloved--

Another year past.
I find myself fighting some same battles
and facing some new battles

The yearn for a husband is still present
as well as for a full-time ministry position.
For clarity, for purpose, for opportunities.

In regards to my relationship with You,
I find myself wishing I could be more like You
More like the person You want me to be.

At times I am patient and content with Your timing
Other times I'm distant, negligent, or pensive
And yet other times, I'm angry and frustrated
Not knowing or understanding what Your will is

But You remain the faithful Bridegroom.
You remain the constant Friend
You remain the trustworthy Teacher

Despite my ups and downs
my strengths and weaknesses
my ebbs and flows

I remain,
Yours.