A Love Letter to my Beloved

My Beloved,

I find myself once again struggling between balancing time with You and all the other interests and obligations out there. It is so easy to just think "later...I'll spend time later." Then the evening gets late and I think "tomorrow for sure." The cycle happens over and over and gets somewhat easier. But having tasted the goodness of hearing from You and being in Your presense, my soul longs for You. The unrest grows in my soul as I choose to neglect spending time with You each day. Oh, that the unrest would never go away during these times!

Be my Calm for my busy mind. Be my Wisdom for my reflective spirit. Be my Love to those in my life. Be relentless in Your pursuit for me...for all of me...until I find solace in Your presense and in Your voice, daily.

I remain,
Yours.

My Beloved Speaks to Me

I am your Rock, your Fortress, your Deliverer
I am the One who provide refuge
I am your Shield, your Salvation, your Stronghold

When you cried out for help, in your distress,
your cry came before me and I heard your voice.

I reached down from on high and took hold of you
I drew you out of the drowning waters.

I will keep the lamp burning
I will turn your darkness into light.

I arm you with strength
and make your paths perfect.

Who is there like Me?


**Adapted from Psalm 18: 2, 6, 16, 28, 31-32.

A Song

Hello Lord, it's me your child.
I have a few things on my mind.
Right now I'm faced with big decisions
And I'm wondering if you have a minute

Right now I don't hear so well and I was wondering if you could speak up.
I know that you tore the veil so I could sit with you in person and hear what you're saying
But right now, I just can't hear you.

I don't doubt your sovereignty
I doubt my own ability to hear what you're saying
And to do the right thing,
And I desperately want to do the right thing.

Somewhere in the back of my mind I think you are telling me to wait
And though patience has never been mine
Lord I will wait to hear from you.

Right now I don't hear so well and I was wondering if you could speak up.
I know that you tore the veil so I could sit with you in person and hear what you're saying
But right now, I think you're whispering.


**Lyrics by Sara Groves

A Love Letter to my Beloved

Dear Beloved--

There's a saying that "beauty is in the eye of the beholder."
While I think I would be overwhelmed to see what You see, it would be nice to see a glimpse of what You see, when You see me.

Are You pleased who I am or who I'm becoming?
Do You wish that I would trust You more?
Do You sigh or chuckle when I feel incompetent, emotional, or impatient?
Do You delight in breathing Your joy and peace into my heart?
Are there times when You cradle me in Your arms, even when I might be unaware?
Are You constantly whispering Your love to me?
Are You frustrated when I don't have the ears to hear You?

I know I can't define You by my limited mind. I am confident the emotions You feel are extraordinarily more complex and overwhelming than I can even imagine.

I know You've designed me the way You desired me to be. You've equipped me with the strengths and weaknesses and personality that makes me Your unique creation. And You take pleasure in me. But I guess I just wish I knew how this person that I am fits into the calling You have also given me.

I trust in You...Beloved, be my Beautiful One.
I remain,
Yours.