My Beloved Speaks to Me

I am your rock, your fortress and your deliverer; 
I am the rock in whom you can take refuge,
Your shield and the horn of your salvation

I am your stronghold, your refuge, and your Savior.
I alone can save you from destruction.

Call out to Me.
In your distress, call out to Me.
for I hear your voice;
your cry comes to My ears

I will be your lamp
I will turn your darkenss into light.


**Adapted from II Samuel 22:3, 7, 29

A Love Letter to my Beloved

My Beloved,

My mind is full of thoughts, circulating around and around, with no real focus. It occurs to me that the One who can bring focus to me, the One I need to speak to and hear from, is You.

You have beckoned me my entire life. I remember when my dad told me about You and asked if I'd like You to be my Savior. Honestly, in that moment I already loved You and accepted You...saying yes to my dad was the easiest decision I've ever made. As I grown from that young age, I've learned so much more about You. The sweet and simple belief as a child has matured and developed, which has been good. However, along with a developed faith, my hindrances have also grown. It can be harder to trust You and Your timing. Instead of my young assurance that everything about You is good, including Your timing, I now am more prone to worrying, doubting, and becoming frustrated.

It is in those moments, when I need to take time to look backwards. All throughtout my past, which has been filled with moments of uncertainty and cluelessness as it is now, there You have been. Your hand has been on me, guiding me. Your presence has been so real and evident. There is not one time throughout my past 30 years, where I cannot see You interwoven throughout everything I done. So with this assurance, how can I not trust You for the present and future? You are still here. You are still guiding me. You are still in control. Even when I feel surrounded by confusion and sometimes darkness.

So I hand You (again) my desires for a ministry and a spouse, my musings over more education and ministry preparation, and everything else that I repeatedly try to control, guess, and mull over. Instead, all I need...all I want is still You.

I remain,
Yours.

The Journey.

Hearing.
Waiting.
Wondering.

Uncertain.
Frustrated.
Impatient.

Reflecting.
Knowing.
Trusting.

You.
Beckon.
Gently.

Faithful.
Unchanging.
Immanuel.

My Beloved Speaks to Me

I will answer you when you call to Me
I will give relief in your distress
I will show you My mercy

In your anger, do not sin
Whether you are at home, at work, or elsewhere
Search your heart and be silent before Me

Trust in Me
Many will ask "Is there any good?"
I will let my light shine on you
I will fill your heart with joy
I will take care of all your needs


**Adapted from Psalm 4:1, 4-7

A Conversation

Me

Dear Beloved,

I will guard my ways that I may not sin with my tongue.
Lord, make me to know my end and what is the extent of my days.
And now Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in You.
Hear my prayer, O Lord, and give ear to my cry
Do not be silent at my tears for I am a stranger with You

I remain,
Yours.


Him

Mindy,

Seek
whatever is true
whatever is noble
whatever is right
whatever is true
whatever is pure
whatever is lovely
whatever is admirable

and if you see or know
anything that is excellent
anything that is admirable
think about these things

Whatever you learned, received, or heard from me; these are things to dwell on and practice.
And when you do, you'll find that My peace is all around you.
I'm still here.

Yours.



**Adapted from Psalm 39:1, 4, 7, 12 and Philippians 4:8-9

A Love Letter to my Beloved

Dear Beloved--

You are able
and I am so thankful for that

Your shoulders are big enough to carry my fears, worries, frustrations, dreams, hopes, tears and enthusiasm. You alone are worthy of my trust because You have proven Yourself to be so faithful and constant these past 30 years, that I know I can depend on You. You will never fail me.

I may not understand You at times. I may wish Your ways were my ways. I may grow weary in the process as I am right now but You are still good.

You are still worth my love and confidence.
Without You, I would be a broken mess.

I remain,
Yours.

A Song

You are God in heaven
And here am I on earth
So I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You

And I'll stand in awe of You, Jesus
Yes, I'll stand in awe of You
And I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You

The simplest of all love songs
I want to bring to You
So I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You


**Words and lyrics by Matt Redman (although the clip is sung by Phillips, Craig, and Dean)